The Widower’s Notebook: A Memoir

Written with unexpected humor and great warmth, The Widower's Notebook is a portrait of a marriage, an account of the complexities of finding oneself single again after losing your spouse, and a story of the enduring power of familial love.

"This is deeply moving . . . beautifully written and modulated, with a dollop of droll, black humor. It is such an achievement, like running uphill against a strong wind." —Joyce Carol Oates

On a summer day in New York, Jonathan Santlofer discovers his wife, Joy, gasping for breath on their living room couch. After a frenzied 911 call, an ambulance race across Manhattan, and hours pacing in a hospital waiting room, a doctor finally delivers the fateful news. Consumed by grief, Jonathan desperately tries to pursue life as he always had—writing, social engagements, and working on his art—but finds it nearly impossible to admit his deep feelings of loss to anyone, not even to his beloved daughter, Doria, or to himself. 

As Jonathan grieves and heals, he tries to unravel what happened to Joy, a journey that will take him nearly two years.